I just had to express how wonderful everyone is that I've met here so far. I found this site and thought "this is a good place to be anonymous and express my thoughts". Well I really didn't expect to have people respond to my thoughts but they have and I'm so glad they did. It's like therapy, when life gets overwhelming, sometimes I vent here and see that I'm not alone in feeling overwhelmed and there seems to be a wealth of people here that offer support and I sure hope I can do that for you too!

Had a job interview yesterday, thought Oh boy my chance to lift myself out of endless box packing when I'm not even hired in by the company yet. The job was for a Management trainee position that pays only slightly more than what I'm making now but the ad indicated raises were quick and growth opportunities were great. Plus, it was in the same town I live in. Well, when something seems to good to be true, it is. The guy interviewing me called, asking me if he could bump up the interview from 9 to 10:30 cause something came up and he was at least an hours drive away, asked me if that was a problem and I said yes because I called my work and said I would be late and he asked how late I worked and told him 5.
He then said the only other time was Monday, so I figured I already called in late I might as well do the interview at 10:30. The interview went like this: You wouldn't be working at this facility because we already have a manager for this place. What I would be doing is training for six weeks until they have another facility built or ready for their service which he wasn't even sure where that new facility would be, he then asked if I was willing to relocate? Not for the amount of money they were offering to start, mid $20's Maybe double that, I would consider relocating. So now, I'm depressed because yesterday was also my eighth month of working at this company and I am still working for the temp agency. With no insurance or any indication of being hired in. I dropped my Algebra course right now I can take it later. It started sooner than I thought, my life is weighing heavy on my mind and Algebra is definitely not in my head at all. I feel like I stuck in box packing hell with no way out and no opportunity to improve my life.

In my errands today, I decided to bring my camera because the weather where I am is unseasonably warm. Well it was when I was working all week. Now that I have the weekend off, it's very cold with drizzling, bone chilling rain. That snatched the motivation of taking any landscape pictures right out of my mind. So after doing a little grocery shopping, I went home and then realized there was a pound of hamburg in the fridge that needed to be cooked. I decided to whip up a pot of chili, have'nt had that or made it in a long time. So I'll do laundry while that's cooking and then I'll go to the gym to get out of dreariness for a while, then I'll come home and do school work.